Thursday, April 4, 2013

30.


Wow, where did the time go? 
I remember turning 13 years old. To me turning 13, becoming a teenager, meant I was now “an adult.” And the day I turned 16 and got my driver’s license is crystal clear in my memory. On that day I was sure adult status had been reached.
Yet, it seems like only yesterday that I was turning 20 and leaving my teen years behind. Yep, no question about it. I’m definitely an adult now, I thought.
Was that really ten years ago?!
After ten years of jobs, bills, and other adult responsibilities, I’ve often found myself wondering, is there any way to become a child again?  :) 
Yet, today, I turn 30

I love birthdays, always have. But this year is different. Why does it feel so strange to no longer be a twenty-something? 30 immediately makes me think of (and lament) the things I have never done, the accomplishments I’ve always dreamed of but not achieved yet.
The long list left me a little depressed.
My normal excitement at the thought of an upcoming birthday was replaced with anxiety. How do I really feel about turning 30? I thought to myself. Am I going to be depressed all day? That’s ridiculous! What is wrong with me?
That’s when I decided I needed a change of focus.
So I pulled a pen and paper out to make a list. This one would not be filled with goals not yet achieved. There is plenty of time to tackle that list later. This list would be a list of all the things I’m thankful for.
Though I could spend endless hours recounting all of God’s blessings in my life, I’ve chosen to highlight only the top few here.
1. New Life. I praise God for pursuing me long before I was even aware of Him. 
2. My family. There are some people we choose to have in our lives and there are some people who have just always been there. And I'm thankful for the people I call family. 
3. THE BEST friends. From high school friends to college roommates to friends I can't imagine life without, God has placed more wonderful friends in my life than I can count.
4. The future. The hope of something better than I can imagine. I'm ready. 
5. A good job. Who else gets to work in college ministry, do what they love each day, work with some of the best people I've ever met, and get paid for it?
6. Failed relationships. Yes, I’m talking about painful cry-your-eyes-out type of failure. Though heartbreaking at the time, failed relationships and friendships have taught me how to love, forgive, and become a better version of myself. 
7. A wonderful church family. I am thankful for my brothers and sisters who are faithful to pray for me and to share in both my joys and my sorrows (and allow me to do the same for them) as we do life together.  
As you can imagine, I complied a list much longer than this one. It included everything from my puppy and travel experiences to simple pleasures like a beautiful fall day and peaceful times of reflection in a coffee shop.
So, with that I will say goodbye to my 20s.  It was fun, really fun – I learned a lot and can’t wait to see what the next decade has in store!
Happy 30 Birthday to me! 

Monday, April 1, 2013

soul.

It takes me a long time to process what I’m learning on a soul level. 

I knew this to an extent, but trying to write something meaningful on a blog has made that even more clear to me.

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

I want to write about more meaningful things.
I want to write about God.
And poverty.
What it means to really love people.
Generosity.
Thankfulness.


I want to write about beautiful things.


Saturday, January 5, 2013

it's a new year.


I turn 30 this year. (seriously?) This is going to be my best year yet. 
Here are some of my goals. 

·      Send a handwritten note every month
·      Monthly meal planning
·      Say “No” more. {Quit something Thursdays.}
·      Memorize 1 scripture/week
·      Spend at least 1 day a month in an extended amount of solitude
·      Seek mentoring to understand myself and God more
·      Journal at least once a week (hopefully more)
·      Read 1 book a month
·      Take control of thoughts and actions- be intentional and positive
·      Eat breakfast daily
·      Train/run another half marathon



Wednesday, December 12, 2012

the story

{Taken for the Jesus Storybook Bible}

No, the Bible isn't a book of rules, or a book of heroes. The Bible is most of all a Story. It's an adventure story about a young Hero who comes from a far country to win back his lost treaure. It's a love story about a brave Prince who leaves his palace, his throne ----- everything ----- to rescue the one he loves. It's like the most wonderful fairy tales that has come true in real life! 

You see, the best think about this Story is ------ it's true. 

There are lots of stories in the Bible, but all the stories are telling one Big Story. The Story of how God loves his children and comes to rescue them. It takes the whole Bbke to tell this Story. And at the center of the Story, there is a baby. Every Story in the Bible whispers his name. He is like the missing piece in a puzzle --- the piece that makes all the other pieces fit together, and suddenly you can see a beautiful picture. 

And this is no ordinary baby. This is the Child upon whom everything would depend. This is the Child who would one day ---- but wait. Our Story starts where all good stories start. 

Right at the very beginning......

Wednesday, November 28, 2012


In today’s functional culture, the common question is, “What am I able to do?” People take tests to determine skill sets and aptitude and then march off to pursue a career based on the results.
But Bob Goff says the better question is, “What am I made to do?” He goes on to say, “It’s as simple as asking, ‘What are the things you think are beautiful? And you want in your life?’ ... And then there’s other stuff you stink at, and they cause you a bunch of stress. I just try and do more of the first and less of the second.”
This is perfect.

Friday, November 2, 2012

30 days of THANKS.

Hello, November. 

This month is all about giving thanks. My goal is to consciously engage in (at least) one moment of thankfulness every day this month. 

That's it. So that's what I'm doing. Each day I'm going to share one thing I"m thankful for. 

And so I'm delighted to be doing this. Join me if you wish.

Day 1: My puppy. 



Day 2: My family. 



Day 3: My friends. 



Day 4: My health.